IT'S ME

 By my birth I am a Bipolar person. Very introvert and creative natured having huge energy, sometimes being hyperactive. Born in a very middle class family I got a very small space to live in.But all family members were very supportive, loving and caring. My father was a government service holder.My father was a Bipolar too. He had a huge musical talent. My childhood days have been very hectic because I hated schooling but had to go for it regularly. Normal educational system was not for me and everyone pushed me to normal schooling. I had special talents by birth . My creative energy used to be pent up as my creative frenzy was getting suppressed every day by the pressure of study.

I went to Missionary school and it was like a prison for me.I started bunking classes and changed my school 3 times. I cried in utter despair when ever meeting a hostile force. The question "who am I ?" and "where did I come from?" taunted me all the time. I used to read Supernatural and spiritual books. My father provided me all those books I liked.I asserted that I want to study literatures, Mythology, classical music and dance along with Art at home in a room alone. But our society is wrongly formed to treat the children like us. So a degree and job opportunities were everything for a middle class child. My pent up energy started to hammer my brain after crossing teen age. And I started suffering from psychosis and then scizophrenia since then. My parents encouraged me to learn Painting, Dance, Music, writing,yoga even swimming along with study . It somehow saved me. My teachers were good but someone treated me very wrongly starting from 1998 to 2008. These ten years was just traumatic to describe. From 2009 I started taking medicine prescribed by the renowned Psychiatrist Dr. Uday Chowdhury. My friend and sister Nabanita Dutta took me to the doctor noticing my problem. She is no more on the Earth. But I respect and love her very dearly. I went through English Honours and Masters course during this session. Then I started to utilise my talent to earn money and help my father. But I couldn't earn very hugely and underwent a lot of struggle, both mental and physical and financial. The emotional crisis was high during this period. In an Institution of specially abled children I got a partime teaching job and also did private tution for 5 years.

One thing here I should mention that in 2002 I became a die hard fan of a Star Plus Serial Ssshhhh koi hai which became a part of my life. I found my feelings getting expression in the process of collecting and creating beautiful things on that show. I maintain a different blog namely Skh Fanatorealm skhvng.blogspot.com to uphold all these to the world.

In the moment of extreme depression and crisis this show and it's characters like Vikraal played by Mamik Singh,Lily played by Shonali Malhotra, Gabroo played by Kk Goswami and others caused a great relief. It was a miracle gift from Almighty to me. I would like to request my viewers to visit this blog atleast once to grasp the complete meaning of my life.

I always try to maintain authenticity in regular work and cannot stand dishonesty at any cost. After a long journey and experience I got married in 2020. 

But now by the Grace of God I have found the channelisation of my creativity through blog and YouTube channel on which I am completely focussed now.

I came in touch with very many great souls ,both in family and outside who helped me to learn the truth of life . For that I am thankful to myself  and to them.

Now time will speak the very ultimate answer which I am trying to find every moment. I am continuing my study on Mystery creation- The Natural Science and exploring all these through a tough fight . I have refused abusive proposals to choose the wrong path to shine in life.